“just because you don’t see it, doesn’t mean it isn’t going to happen.”
If I can be all the way real, waiting is hard. I think it’s natural to want what you want when you want it, but at the same time I feel, as a follower of Jesus Christ, waiting has a whole nother’ layer….. it’s a test of your faith. Will you trust God and believe that He will do what he said he’s going to do, or will you try to figure it out on your own, and complain the whole time?
Here’s my story..
Have you ever dreaded going to work so much so, that while at work thoughts of quitting swarmed your mind? I hate to even admit this, because this was the job that I prayed for. God literally told me to move to Texas, and worked everything out and it went smoothly. I wanted to jump right into counseling, but in TX there are certain requirements you have to have, such as a number of years of teaching experience.
This was the plan, and I knew I had to endure this process, but it was hard. Its hard doing something you’re not entirely passionate about, but in the back of your mind you know that God always has the big picture in mind, and in that big picture you are where you need to be, regardless of your feelings. I remember standing at work zoning out one day at the end of the day, and a student literally knocked me back to reality, because she wanted to give me a picture she colored for me. It was a brightly colored butterfly. And then I heard, “look on the bright side.”
The only reason I share this is because I know I’m not the only one who has ever had to go through a waiting process or has had to go to a job that they weren’t entirely passionate about. But as I’m typing this, I’m thinking that it really wasn’t that bad, and I don’t think it was the job, it was the fact that I didn’t have what I wanted when I wanted it and I didn’t want to wait for it. I mean, if we are being all the way real.
At the end of the day, as much as you want to plan everything out, and skip steps, you can’t. During this summer I kept going over and being called attention to Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you…. ” Like I was literally in line at the store and randomly saw that scripture on a mug, after a rough day. I got it. I knew God had a plan for me, but that didn’t mean I didn’t want to help him out a little bit or speed it up and maybe meet him half way. As an over planner who literally plans everything humanly possible I’ve learned to slow down and find the balance of trusting the process while practicing mindfulness. Not to mention, if you’re familiar with the story of Jeremiah, like me, he too was doubtful. Doubtful because even though he knew God was with him, fearful thoughts crept in because he thought he was too young and that he wasn’t qualified enough to do what God called him to do. However, with every question of doubt, God reassured him that he was more than qualified and even told him that he would put the words in his mouth.
Then the universe aligned….
God will always supersede every situation.
As I sat in an interview that I was overly anxious for, everything just flowed. I mean at the end of the interview they even thanked me for being so prepared!
Before going into the interview I asked God to give me words and put them in my mouth. I knew I was ready, but I still wanted His help. So as I was having a conversation with the principal about a program that I was really passionate about implementing in the school, she had this huge grin on her face and was like, soooo I have to tell you a story. I was like ok…. She proceeds to tell me how she too wanted to do a program like that and start it the upcoming school year, and was literally doing research on it the day prior, but just wanted help and didn’t really know where to start. She said that it would be great if I could help her and work with the students. I mean talk about God putting words in your mouth, and alignment. I believe in confirming signs. Not only that, when something is for you it will literally be for you. She also told me that they were not getting rid of any of the counselors on the team, but that they were adding an additional counselor because the student body was growing. I couldn’t help but to think, wow. Talk about alignment, again. I mean all that time being frustrated in my previous role for a year, was pointless. Say for example the certification requirements weren’t there and I could have immediately applied for a counseling position my first year in TX, the position wouldn’t have even been there. Granted, there are other schools, but what God has for you is for you, and all you have to do is be in position to receive it.
God had that exact moment planned out, and all those moments I spent doubtful and anxious, were a complete waste of time.
Also, regardless of your age or seemingly lack of experience, you are more than qualified, through Christ. Mid interview the principal asked me if I think I’m ready, because on day one I will need to be able to hit the ground running, and I confidently replied, yes.
I’m happy to say that I accepted a job offer as a High School counselor at the above mentioned school, and I’m super excited!!
All I can say is, God is crazy faithful. I’m living proof that God really does know the plans he has for you, and will bring them to pass.