My loved ones feared my safety and well being when I told them that I wanted you, and some even questioned my sanity. However, deep down inside of me I knew you were something I just had to have, all the while knowing it would never be anything long term. At times, you could be cold. At times, you could even be brutal. Yet, I still love(d) you. Many chose to focus on the dark parts of you, but I couldn’t help but to see anything but good. Don’t get me wrong, there were certainly bad days, but nothing good ever comes without some bad, right? Late nights. Laughs. 5 different personalities. Sometimes it was as if it was too good to be true. But like all good things, our time together had an inevitable expiration date. Me or you…. I chose me. I still have withdrawals, and sometimes second guesses. You’ll never be able to admit it, but I conquered you…. and that thought alone makes me smile….
It wasn’t a goodbye, but a see ya later, New York.